It's getting better, Growing stronger, Better day by day.
If you can remember that song by the Mammas & the Pappas, then you are older than you would care to admit - I certainly am. What you may ask is getting better. Well it is a bit of a long story but I have been going to the same church for the past 17 years and something happened in January which made me question my faith. I have been struggling for the past few months but for some reason, I really don't know why, whilst I was at church this evening something clicked and I feel that I am 'getting it' once more. I am not an 'in your face' Christian but wanted, for my own peace of mind, to document my journey back to where I really like to be.
My LSNED page for yesterday featured the beautiful and squidgy Nathan.
When we decided to have a baby, it took a couple of years and a couple of miscarriages before we got our beautiful girl and I soooooo wanted a girl. I would not entertain the thought that I might have a boy - to the extent that we didn't even have a boy's name and were arguing about it going down to theater. I had an elective c-section and before she was born the doctor asked me what I wanted, I said a girl and when she was born he said for a joke 'It's a boy'. Now the extent of my longing for a girl came to the fore as my first thought was not - is he healthy, but oh no I will have to go through this again! I was so relieved when I realised my baby was a beautiful girl.
So I have always loved little girls but after meeting Nathan concede that maybe boys are just as cute.
Look at these gorgeous butterflies. They are made of tin but I am sure you could get a similar effect with mirror card. I am going to try with my Rainbow pack and see what they can make.
Not my usual up beat post - normal service will be resumed tomorrow.
Reasons to be cheerful:
1. I am glad I made the effort to go to church, when it would have been so easy to stay at home.
2. A day doing paperwork means that I can spend the evenings working on paper projects that I must get a start on.
3. Sunny days and warm evenings.